Dear Srila Prabhupada
Please accept my respectful obeisance to you.
All glories to Chaitanya Mahaprabhu! All glories to you. All glories to all the devotees!
I am very grateful to you for your teachings as well as giving me the opportunity to be part of wonderful Hare Krishna movement which changed my course of life completely.
Before I came in touch with Krishna Consciousness, I was indulging in all abominable acts which are royal gate to hellish conditions of life, but I was foolishly thinking them to be source of enjoyment and suffering continuously. Gradually the suffering in ignorance became so much more that I was completely hopeless in life. Even after searching for a solution for many years at various so-called religious and spiritual organizations, meeting and listening to self-styled Guru, Gods as well as by reading various books in these topics, I was clueless about the purpose of life and started thinking that there is no real purpose of life.
I was in complete darkness, in the mode of ignorance throughout my life but now it had become intolerable but by your mercy I met a devotee called Sri Sanjay Jain Prabhu at my work place. This was the lifesaver event for me because after listening to so many renowned so-called spiritual persons and completely dejected with life due to immense suffering, there was no hope for me but here I was listening to my college who was full of hope, who could answer all my queries with amazing clarity on the purpose of life and practical implementation of them. Sanjay Prabhu took personal interest in me, very patiently spent countless hours with me, taking me to temple, feeding me Prasadam, talking about Krishna, Bhagavad Gita philosophy, fascinating pass times from Bhagavatam, Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, Six Goswamis, pass times from Chaitanya Charitamritam, introducing me to devotees, talking about life of a devotee and many more things which are endless.
I have so many things to tell but I can’t express all of them here. However, I would like to tell you that I have not been able to estimate the greatness and sacrifice done by Sanjay Prabhu for me so how can I ever understand what kind of sacrifices you have done throughout your life for saving the whole world.
Still, out of countless sacrifices done by you, what made me cry was that you were alone in a foreign country and struggling for so many things but at bare minimum even food was not available to a great saintly and renowned person in India, who could meet the then Prime Minister but you continued your sacrifices to spread this movement so that an insignificant person like me, who is fit for severe punishment, but still by your mercy, persons like me also can be saved from this dangerous condition of life.
I must admit Prabhupad that even after going through so much of trials and tribulations in my life, I am so fool that I have not learned much, I haven’t been sincere, consistent in my devotional practices and still trying very hard to follow the basics rules and regulations. I am begging for your mercy and forgiveness for all of my mistakes so that somehow or other I a fallen soul like me can remain in the association of devotees.
Trying to be Your servant
Ashutosh Kumar