My first letter to Srila Prabhupada!
Dear Srila Prabhupada,
Please accept my humble obeisances.
In this material world for any work, they expect a qualification and it changes based on the kind/grade of work.
Being a conditioned soul with a bare minimum understanding of your books & teachings – I clearly know that I am not qualified to be your servant.
Knowing clearly well that I am asking for too much, I request you to kindly accept me as your servant. If at all you accept my humble request to be your servant, I would keep in mind it is not because of my qualification & would be because of your causeless mercy.
I always had questions regarding what life meant and the real purpose behind it – Those unanswered questions have haunted me throughout.
However, after reading your books, chanting and associating with great devotees here (who represent & carry your mission),
* I have found a great hope in life
* Life has become meaningful and
* I am able to identify/highlight most of my unwanted material activities
I have been able to completely abstain from non-vegetarian food for the past 5+ months (without much effort from my end) – All because of your mercy.
Having said these, I know there is a very long way ahead in this journey.
When I read your book “Perfect Questions & Perfect Answers”, some of the letters you have written to Bob seemed as if they were addressed directly to me.
In your books Srila Prabhupada you mention that a person, who is diseased, will not be able to appreciate the sweetness of a candy. There are many such incidents in my case where I fail miserably to understand/appreciate the taste of Japa due to my diseased condition and I just fall flat in your feet to help me/guide me during those instances.
I heard in a lecture that when you were asked – What can we do to make you happy? You replied by saying “Read my Books”. Keeping that in mind, as a token of gratitude, I would aim to do at least the following (setting a minimum threshold here) within the next one year –
* Read thoroughly at least five of your books
* Get somewhere between 25 to 50 BG slokas by heart
These are apart from my regular chanting.
As I write this my heart clearly says this is a very minimum threshold and is not good enough. So, I would revisit this letter again (in mid of Jan 2021) before my Birthday.
I cannot just thank you by words for the help and mercy you have bestowed unto me.
When I hear your lectures, I clearly feel (without any doubt) that God has appeared in your form to help us. Otherwise, no mundane person, can explain the kind of concepts you have dealt and enforce the higher purpose of life.
All kinds of challenges in this life can be addressed when we build our life on the premise you mentioned – “Simple Living & High Thinking”. Reading the pastimes like birth of Krishna in Vrndavana and his past times with cowherd boys helps us to strengthen the belief that even a simple life can have a great level of richness (based on our thinking). As the people of vrndavana were completely absorbed in the thoughts of Krishna even the simple things they did reflect their high level of happiness & unalloyed devotion.
Thank you once again for showing us the way and also lighting the pathway to make it easier for us to reach you. I hope I do not become the son who fails to appreciate the things his great & eternal father has done for him.
I will try to be as sincere as possible and do the best from my end in this spiritual and back to home journey. I am sure you will be guiding me from within my heart.
Please direct me whenever my thoughts are not in the right place and kindly provide me the strength (till my last breath) to meditate on the holy name and your teachings and not fall prey for petty materialistic things.
Will try even harder than before to qualify as your servant,
Pradeeph Sundar.
August, 2020.